A Fine Sat

Carl has gone with the boys to his guys' weekend and I am left to enjoy the house with some time to myself. On Sat, I have pilates in the morning and after class I decided to take a stroll. My co-workers are addicted to Nuts To You. They have requested me to get them some dark roasted peanuts. I went to there to get them their treats. After that I went to Barnes and Noble. I was heading upstairs to check out some books. I overheard this guy asking the help desk for a book. He wasn't really silent about it. It was quite amusing. He was looking for "The Way Of The Superior Man: A Spiritual Guide to Mastering the Challenges of Woman, Work, and Sexual Desire." Wow! I need to get this one for Carl. :) At least he was not embarrass about it. Work a little, took a nap, watching my fav movie of all time, and going to dinner at my fav Chinese place with Dena, Liz and Cat. What a great weekend! Yesterday watch Enchanted with Dena and stuff ourselves with pizza and went to Naked Chocolate for dessert. Yep, almost ready to have Carl back.

today a friend told me something

A friend told me I worry to much. She is right. At first I was like damn. But she is right. I wish I don't. I wish I can just sit and relax and not worry about Carl or my dad or if my contract ends at the bank. That is me. It is hard for me to just let go. I wish I can relax and play and Carl take responsible. But it is not as easy as it seems. Tomorrow I will try. Today I'll be sad a little.

don't owe you jack shit

Parents bring children in to this world and they give them a gift of life. Their best gift is life and teach them from right and wrong. When they go into the world they understand the choices that they about to make.

Today I learn that some parents expect more than that. They expect their children to provide for them financially. For me that is a bit hard to grasp. I am not from a wealth off family. My parents do not expect my brother or I to support them financially because we are starting our lives right now and they know it is impossible. They rather we take care of us and get ourselves settle and financially comfortable. This is an unselfish way of thinking.

No matter what, family members DO NOT owe anyone anything, whether you are an aunt or uncle or cousin or brother or sister. You are lucky if your family members is willing to help you out once in awhile.

Having the support of family members during emotional time means more to me. That is a true blessing!

tomorrow my baby turns 39

I remember the day I met my baby, he was only 30. Wow that seems ages ago. Tomorrow he will be 39. WOW!!! Old ass. I remember asking him... you have kids. I don't like kids and don't date guys with kids. Oh, I almost forgot our anniversary. We have been together for 9 years now. Dammmmmmnnn! Next year it will be 10. I feel ancient.

commute

when I commute in the morning, I wonder sometimes, if anything happens to my car would any of these people let me know that I have a flat tire or something. It is interesting. I drive on 95 and there are more women on the road and would they bond with me if anything happen or leave me stranded. Hmmm, I wonder. I don't want to experience anything bad but would just want to see if the act of kindness would occur.

wedding festivities

Pretty much on the way. We have book our reception spot. I got my wedding gown. Not sure if I want a wedding planner. I want a photographer and Carl says no and I say go to hell. I found a DJ. Need an officiant. We are trying to get that priest from Halloween to officiate. The church is definitely a no... how can a church charge $1000 for ceremony. That is bullshit. The worst is that it is falling apart. I think that is funny. Anyway, we are not doing any gift registry. We have every thing we need. So, best gift is $$$. My gift registry is at Bank of America and Philadelphia Credit Union and it is call *MONEY ORDER*... make out to Carl Fleshman or Micaela Au Yong. I met with a wedding planner and she say that is tacky to put it in the invite. Best way is to hint it to our guest and the guest past it on. I am telling people in case you have no clue and you got an invite. HINT HINT HINT. So, I know you read my blog.

What else am I doing? hmmm. Not sure about the damn florist thing. Anyone knows a florist or has a friend who is a florist. I was told by this florist, she won't work with me actually she has not reply my email since my order is not more than $1000. I just need 3 bouquet and 3 thing for the dude. Better yet the guys gets nothing. I am calling Wegmans. I am getting my wedding cupcakes from them. We wanted Brown Betty's and they were charging $2 a cupcake for minis. Know what a mini is? The cut the top off. It is like Henry VIII cutting Anne Boleyn's head off. Yes good comparisons. Sorry that is a waste of $ more like a waste of good cupcake. Well, Carl and I love Wegman's cake and they will be charging us 79 cents a cupcake. We have several friends and the groom wants 2 or 3 cupcakes. So, that save us $$$. Is all about the $$. It's getting exciting and fun. But there is drama as always. But thank goodness for friends.